Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggghhhhhh

HELP!!!

I'm piss mad at magg can!! and ya ok so i feel bad and all guilty and all. but which part of i cant have a gf does she not get?! as in like, i cant means i cant right? i have a future to worry about can. seriously whether or not i can make it or not remains to be seen ya noe. and i cannot have the risk of anything screwing it up right? damn! ya i do feel for her and all but seriously i dun want this to drag. its killing me..

and she asks me to lie to her, to still msg her, to still this still dat. MAN!! can anyone get anymore stupid?? i cant dudes. its not that i dun want to but CMON!! anyone who noes me noes i cant lie i'm more straightforward than anything else right?????

sigh... but if i were her, i'll hate me. its really hard.. too hard on her.. but i am dying everyday too.. sighs.. dudes wish me all the best alright. you guys noe i do feel for her. however much i can give up for this career, i alr have. and in time to come, i'm sure there'll be more. but really i like this. singing, acting, doing stuffs that require me to engage people. my strengths never laid in my studies or wadeva. it was always that i have a not-so-bad face and that i can reach out to people? i dunno... sighs... ok i'm going in circles now.. so it'll end here..

Its a bad bad day. oh somewhere this month i'll be goin taipei again. so the trips i gonna tell ya all again.

ARGH.